In the midst of being very certain that I can let go of “things” to clear space for new adventures in life to keep flowing in, I get thrown for a loop sometimes. My little girl is growing up so fast. I LOVE how much fun we have together and trust the best is yet to come because that has been my experience. But too often my heart isn’t so certain it can let go and move on. And that is O.K. I think I need a HUG.
I only have one kid and a very sweet husband. Still it seems that all I do is unload the CLEAN dishwasher. No one else seems to take on that job. Mind you, my handsome hubby always cleans the table and loads the dirty dishes into the dishwasher after dinner. He is a true Prince. So, it occured to me one day that I should time myself to see how long it really took to do the task I despise. It took under 5 minutes. Really Really! AND we got new beautiful Denby White dishes that I LOVE to see clean. When I looked at it with a perspective of gratitude, I added more PEACE into my daily GRIND. We’ll explore LAUNDRY next. That happens every hour on the hour! UGH! I mean… Ohm……..
My nine-year-old daughter is an amazing child who is spiritually connected, peaceful and compassionate. She is one of the coolest people I know. So, it freaks me out to see how wigged she gets sometimes during social situations.
My daughter is a LEADER not a follower. Not a sheep. That is good news. She won’t be tempted to smoke in the bathroom or jump off the bridge when all of the other girls with no self-esteem are going down the slippery slope…. Or will she? (But I digress)
I LOVE how strong she is and I have done much to build up her confidence in who she naturally is as a person. She is a future world leader who will save the planet from destruction while being her own style maven, karate champion, comedian and best selling author.
She is pretty stubborn about using “her” ideas during creative playtime. She is after all an “only child” and gets to do whatever she wants most of the time. (AND her ideas TOTALLY ROCK!) We strategize endlessly on how she can tame her enormous ego without losing her “edge”, AND keep her ZEN… ZEN.
One day after a “break down in world peace talks” in the back yard, a.k.a. “a riff in a play date”, what she said surprised me. “Mommy, I have an evil, mean side that comes out some times. I promise I am going to lock it up and never let it out again.” She pretended to have a key that locked her heart and then tossed the key.
Then I said, “Elizabeth, what you did had nothing to do with you being EVIL. You are pure LOVE! You are a strong personality like your mama.” Then we chatted about how a great leader and friend empowers others and allows herself to be inspired by THEIR ideas. Yadda yadda yadda…
Then I took the opportunity to say, “While we are on that topic, everyone has an “evil side”. Especially… I mean EVEN Mommy. Most people are too afraid to admit that. It is part of being HUMAN. Thank you for telling me about your true feelings. Now let me tell you something. I don’t want you to lock up your evil side. You know those creeps who offer kids candy, or the person who tries to touch you or do anything inappropriate or harmful to you? I want you to unleash your most horrific EVIL side on THEM. That is what it is for. I’m not suggesting that it will happen to you. I’m just saying that you have permission to defend yourself when you are in serious danger. You are my Karate Freight Train! You are so strong and so smart. And your HEART is one of compassion. SOOO NO unleashing EVIL on our sweet friends. Let’s go apologize and see how we can compromise. Are we Cool?”
“Cool, thanks mom.”
HUG. (and cue dramatic music)
Stay strong in your faith. Meditate on those things you are unsure of. The answers are there. You just don’t trust them enough yet. SO many trains have LEFT the station. You did not get on. You didn’t understand where they were going. That is OK. They weren’t meant for you. Step away from the platform! You aren’t going by train. You are meant to FLY.
Susan Kay Wyatt
I decided that my VLOG is missing me doing my music which is weird since I am a singer/songwriter who lives to empower and inspire people with my music. So I got Elizabeth to man the camera. We talked about what kind of shots we wanted to get and then did our first TEST SHOOT so we could “evaluate” the lighting, shots etc. Mommy botched the chords on the bridge of the song and then hit some heinus note that should have ended the whole thing. But us “show biz troopers” forged on! I was going to review it and then shoot the real one, but Elizabeth was laughing so hard AND was about to quit work to swing on the swings. So I decided it was as good as it gets. Plus the perfectionist in me got to enjoy the messy gooey horrifyingly sinfully delectible yucky-ness of my own humanity. Wooo Hooooo!
Being a person who lives to empower and inspire puts a lot of pressure on me to BE everything I am meant to be! Some days I’m just not feelin’ it. Happily, I have a daughter who has been paying attention and seems to give it back to me just when I need it. Then she takes it further and wants to empower the rest of the world too. Apples and trees.